Dot in the Universe

I apologise
for the universe is
against me.

I’m the only hope
that’s unattainable.
I’m the scarlet umbrella
unused in that drought.
I’m the awkward silence
bound to ebb the conversation.
I’m the terrible ending
to that adored book.
I’m all the things
you do not want.
I’m all the things
you don’t need.
I’m all the things
that you aren’t.

I apologise,
for the universe
is against me.
I have tried endlessly
to be the sound of waves
that calms you so
and failed notoriously.
I have broken down
the wall only to
build it back again.

I apologise
for the universe
is against me for
I have found love.
I have caught the
butterflies in my stomach
and let them free.
I had never felt a feeling
so sincere in
this wretched world.
It’s the flicker of light
in the deepest sorrows.
It is the aegis to
my brittle heart.

I apologise
for the universe
is against me for
you have found me
and I have found
all the rights
to my wrongs.

I apologise
for the universe
is against me for
the asteroids are
tearing me apart.
There is a pang of truth
in every word spoken
that throbs my aching heart.

There’s a black hole in my heart
that’s seeping from the seams.
It yearns to devour me whole
and succumb to nix.
It sings to me a pacifying lullaby,
beckoning me into infinite slumber.
After all I’m
a mere dot in the universe
as vast as your kind heart.
I’m not as brave as
everyone assumes I am.
I’m not the girl who
has everything figured out.
I am the dandelion
wilting away,
or at least I was
until you came along
and carried me away.
I am ready,
like never before
to show the universe
that I’m not made of
sweet dreams and rain drops
nor am I made of
hurricanes and tsunamis.
I am made of everything that
everybody has given me,
or maybe otherwise. 

I apologise
for the universe
is against me
but it’s about time
the queen conquers
and rules her kingdom
back from the ashes.

Back In Time

Sometimes I wish
We could go back
To the first few months
Since we’ve met, when I,
I wasn’t madly in love with you,
And whatever you said or did,

Did not hurt me.

Fortunately, that is the case.
You make my heart flutter.
Unfortunately, that is the case.
You shatter my heart.

I ask of you only one thing,
I beg of you,
Do not make me wait.
I don’t have such patience.
For I can wait an eternity of
Rage and then move on
With a sorrowful heart.

Watershed

An abrupt instant that
Unwittingly altered my life;
I lost you.

Benumbed and disconcerted
I did not shed one tear.

Gazes of condolence
“Be strong.” they said
I was at crossroads.

Tongue-tied,
The lifeless body whizzed by
Did nothing but kiss goodbye

To the wasted days and time
And recall the wonder years
Which were now incomplete
Without you.

Witchy Woman

She rides on her vicious broom
Wandering and casting spells
She learns of the world, subtly
Rising into the abyss of perspicacious vice.

She oozes of  mystic
Is sly like a fox
She lives in a shed
With her nocturnal creatures,
Under her spell

She speaks of evil
Mesmerizing the folks
Excels at camouflaging
Paving her way by tricks

Her motto being “Be evil to live”
She hides in the mist
Dwelling in the darkness
Nowhere to be found